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Long-Term & Lifelong

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When something seems too good to be true
Think and Analyse of its long-term consequences
There is bound to long-term sacrifice and pain
Towards the affected people, instigated ones and instigators
Or bound to long-term joy and peace
Or bound to lifelong guilt

Feel!

How fragile is a child’s heart
Just a minor action will affect that child’s lifelong psychologically
Either lifelong beautiful memories or lifelong unrepairable wounds.

Choose!
Choose after you think!
Think as you choose!
Think before you reach to a decision!

How many times adults make excuses to justify their actions?
And let it happen to the innocent born child
Is it the right way to do so?

Think!
Analyze!
Feel!
Choose!
Decide!

Don’t let the history to repeat itself!


Inspiration On: Friday, 3 August 2012 at 11:08pm
Revised On: Sunday, 5 August 2012 at 11:15pm

With phrases rang in my mind upon seeing my sister’s photo, “When something seems too be true”, my heart feels apologetic towards her.

My grandmother and uncles from dad’s side instigated him to let my sister to study and stay i good n Singapore. My mother was reluctant about it and my grandmother (mother’s) spoke that it is the best for a child to stay with own parents. My mother respected my father’s decision and think about my sister’s good education since my uncles have Singapore PR.

Upon giving birth to me, my grandmother wanted my parents to give it to my father’s third elder brother who cannot conceive. My mother was reluctant and dejected. But my third aunt chose my four-years old sister because she was easier to take care rather than me. How hers and my destiny are swapped. Adoption letter was made and my sister receives Singapore PR.

During secondary school, my sister indirectly told mother that she wants to return to hometown, but my mother didn’t get it and replied for her to stay and further her education. My mother was concerned my sister would not be able to adjust to the syllabus at hometown. Misunderstanding occurred. The reason my sister wanted to return to hometown was due to ostracise and bully from third aunt, her cousins. To make it worse, she was forced by grandmother to study all the time. Sense of abandonment and rejection crept into her soul and it lasted until now. Why would my parents leave her alone?

My third aunt was jealous of my mother for being able to conceive. So my sister became the victim of abuse though my parents were paying her school fees. She kept quiet at the abuse, but the helper could not stand it and instructed her to quickly eat more while my aunt was not at the kitchen. Report came to my parents and I heard it during my primary years. Upon reaching my secondary school, my parents began to share about those. My sister confided that those years she continuously watched the white blank wall. I felt pity and hope to accompany her.

To everyone’s surprise, my sister entered Polytechnic then to university and with a bachelor degree. Back then, everyone felt her grades were hopeless. I am graduated very happy that she can succeed.

But the scar of abandonment was there and erupted before her marriage ceremony. My parents and my sister had heated argument about the seating arrangement. Blame for not informing my dad about the seating arrangement fell upon my mother who was forgetful due to the need to handle household. But my sister didn’t think so. She thought that mother purposefully didn’t inform my dad. I have been trying to remove the misunderstanding between them.

Two years later, my sister conceived to a baby girl and had a one month confinement period. She questioned mother for not letting her return to hometown again then explained the words she told before. Mother felt that she need to speak about her feelings and needs directly.

Though now their relationship are good, my mother regretted and is fearful now to pass the adoption letter to my sister after arranged her documents nicely into a file. She is afraid of the erupting fire from my sister. Upon seeing the letter, I have been wondering how to explain to my beloved sister. It is a very painful process for both my mother and sister. And I am praying for God’s intervention and what should I do. I am caught in the middle.

What You See & Hear

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What you see is not what you hear
What you hear is not what you see

Open your eyes widely
Open your ears clearly
Wear your spectacle
Remove the speck covering your eyes
Dig out the dirt in your earlobe
Let your ear as long as the rabbit
Use both of them
To observe correctly
To listen attentively.

Please do REMEMBER
To observe correctly
To listen attentively.


Inspiration On: Saturday, 30 June 2012 at 6:35pm
Revised On: Sunday, 1 July 2012 from 2am to 5:10pm

As I was cycling home from buying groceries, “What you see is not what you hear. What you hear is not what you see.” has been speaking to my mind. Subsequently, I remembered of my situation before. A friend who is guy ever met me at the eateries near my church. Afterward, he seek my permission to follow me in order to know which church building I go for worship then he left as I entered the church building.

Upon reaching home after the completion of Bible class on a certain topic, suddenly my sister questioned worriedly where I went. I answered I went to church for class. Abruptly, she repeated what her friend reported, “I saw your sister walk with a guy to an apartment.” Thank God for His Holy Spirit to give me calmness and replied gently that the apartment was just one out of other apartments I need to pass by from the eateries in order to reach my destination, which is the church building. In my heart, I thank the Lord for the pastor to give a certificate of attendance upon the completion of the Bible class with their contacts. Confidently, I took out the certificate from my school bag. She believed me. And this event has been a laughable matter due my sister’s friend basing his deduction according to what he saw. It will be good if he probed to listen the conversations and followed out of concern, rather than see superficially and report it.

Sometimes hearing people say only without observing may make a mistake also. The animation “Death Note” showed the corrupted officer named Light questioning his suspected underground follower. Light used stackable notes to tell her what to do and telling lies as his other colleagues were listening to his conversations. This what the police officers do to collect evidence. It is not a wise decision either due the incomprehensible of human hearts tempted to go astray (Jeremiah 17:9).

How Long

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As my feet land onto the floor
Either walking step by step or even
Rise from bed, chair, sofa…
The nerves of sprained rear ankle feet
Send signals of throbbing onto my brain.

Struggled to keep a calm demeanour, but
In my heart, I cried in agony
How long more will the pain last?
How long more will I reach home?
How long more will the bus reach?
How long more?


Inspiration On: Saturday, 16 June 2012 at 10:30pm
Revised On: Wednesday, 20 June 2012 at 12:25pm

A few days ago, my rear left ankle is aching. But I sprained my rear right ankle when I was bringing my toddler’s trolley to alight the bus. Then I met my husband after his office hour. Oh, the pain I’m trying to conceal from my husband not wanting to make my toddler’s outing to nothing. Bearing the pain while standing to wait for the coming bus, I thank God to get a seat with my helper carrying my toddler. The long journey really exhausted me especially my aching ankles longing for my bed.

As I search from the Bible the phrase “How Long” mentions:

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Longing for God’s protectionJob 19:1-3 (NIV)Then Job replied: “How longwill you torment me and crush me with words? Ten times now you have reproached me; shamelessly you attack me.

Job 29:1-3(NIV)

Job continued his discourse: “How I long for the months gone by, for the days when God watched over me, when his lamp shone on my head and by his light I walked through darkness!

Revelation 6:10 (NIV)

They called out in a loud voice, “How long, Sovereign Lord, holy and true, until you judge the inhabitants of the earth and avenge our blood?”

 

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God’s longing for us to stop being stubborn and end ourselves in ruin pathsPsalm 4:1-3 (NIV)Answer me when I call to you, my righteous God. Give me relief from my distress; have mercy on me and hear my prayer. How long will you people turn my glory into shame? How longwill you love delusions and seek false gods? Know that the Lord has set apart his faithful servant for himself; the Lord hears when I call to him.

Proverbs 1:21-23 (NIV)

On top of the wall she cries out, at the city gate she makes her speech: “How long will you who are simple love your simple ways? How long will mockers delight in mockery and fools hate knowledge? Repent at my rebuke! Then I will pour out my thoughts to you, I will make known to you my teachings.

Proverbs 6:9-10 (NIV)

How long will you lie there, you sluggard? When will you get up from your sleep? A little sleep, a little slumber, a little folding of the hands to rest.

Jeremiah 4:13-15 (NIV)

Look! He advances like the clouds, his chariots come like a whirlwind, his horses are swifter than eagles. Woe to us! We are ruined! Jerusalem, wash the evil from your heart and be saved. How long will you harbor wicked thoughts? A voice is announcing from Dan, proclaiming disaster from the hills of Ephraim.

Jeremiah 4:20-22 (NIV)

Disaster follows disaster; the whole land lies in ruins. In an instant my tents are destroyed, my shelter in a moment. How long must I see the battle standard and hear the sound of the trumpet? “My people are fools; they do not know Me. They are senseless children; they have no understanding. They are skilled in doing evil; they know not how to do good.”

Jeremiah 12:3-5 (NIV)

Yet you know me, Lord; you see me and test my thoughts about you. Drag them off like sheep to be butchered! Set them apart for the day of slaughter! How long will the land lie parched and the grass in every field be withered? Because those who live in it are wicked, the animals and birds have perished. Moreover, the people are saying, “He will not see what happens to us.”

Jeremiah 13:26-27 (NIV)

I will pull up your skirts over your face that your shame may be seen — your adulteries and lustful neighings, your shameless prostitution! I have seen your detestable acts on the hills and in the fields. Woe to you, Jerusalem! How long will you be unclean?”

Jeremiah 23:25-27 (NIV)

“I have heard what the prophets say who prophesy lies in my name. They say, ‘I had a dream! I had a dream!’ How long will this continue in the hearts of these lying prophets, who prophesy the delusions of their own minds? They think the dreams they tell one another will make my people forget my name, just as their ancestors forgot my name through Baal worship.

Jeremiah 31:21-23 (NIV)

“Set up road signs; put up guideposts. Take note of the highway, the road that you take. Return, Virgin Israel, return to your towns. How long will you wander, unfaithful Daughter Israel? The Lord will create a new thing on earth— the woman will return to[a] the man.” This is what the Lord Almighty, the God of Israel, says: “When I bring them back from captivity, the people in the land of Judah and in its towns will once again use these words: ‘The Lord bless you, you prosperous city, you sacred mountain.’

 

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Seeking God’s refuge and redemptionPsalm 6:2-4 (NIV)Have mercy on me, Lord, for I am faint; heal me, Lord, for my bones are in agony. My soul is in deep anguish. How long, Lord, how long? Turn, Lord, and deliver me; save me because of your unfailing love.

Psalm 13:1-3 (NIV)

How long, Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me? How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and day after day have sorrow in my heart? How long will my enemy triumph over me? Look on me and answer, Lord my God. Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death.

Psalm 35:16-18 (NIV)

Like the ungodly they maliciously mocked; they gnashed their teeth at me. How long, Lord, will you look on? Rescue me from their ravages, my precious life from these lions. I will give you thanks in the great assembly; among the throngs I will praise you.

Psalm 62:2-4 (NIV)

Truly He is my rock and my salvation; He is my fortress, I will never be shaken. How long will you assault me? Would all of you throw me down— this leaning wall, this tottering fence? Surely they intend to topple me from my lofty place; they take delight in lies. With their mouths they bless, but in their hearts they curse.

Psalm 119:83-85 (NIV)

Though I am like a wineskin in the smoke, I do not forget your decrees. How long must your servant wait? When will you punish my persecutors? The arrogant dig pits to trap me, contrary to your law.

Daniel 8:12-14 (NIV)

Because of rebellion, the Lord’s people[a] and the daily sacrifice were given over to it. It prospered in everything it did, and truth was thrown to the ground. Then I heard a holy one speaking, and another holy one said to him, “How long will it take for the vision to be fulfilled —the vision concerning the daily sacrifice, the rebellion that causes desolation, the surrender of the sanctuary and the trampling underfoot of the Lord’s people?” He said to me, “It will take 2,300 evenings and mornings; then the sanctuary will be reconsecrated.”

Daniel 12:5-7 (NIV)

Then I, Daniel, looked, and there before me stood two others, one on this bank of the river and one on the opposite bank. One of them said to the man clothed in linen, who was above the waters of the river, “How long will it be before these astonishing things are fulfilled?” The man clothed in linen, who was above the waters of the river, lifted his right hand and his left hand toward heaven, and I heard him swear by him who lives forever, saying, “It will be for a time, times and half a time. When the power of the holy people has been finally broken, all these things will be completed. ”

Hosea 8:4-6 (NIV)

They set up kings without My consent; they choose princes without My approval. With their silver and gold they make idols for themselves to their own destruction. Samaria, throw out your calf-idol! My anger burns against them. How long will they be incapable of purity? They are fromIsrael! This calf—a metalworker has made it; it is not God. It will be broken in pieces, that calf ofSamaria.

Habakkuk 1:1-3 (NIV)

The prophecy that Habakkuk the prophet received. How long, Lord, must I call for help, but You do not listen? Or cry out to You, “Violence!” but You do not save? Why do You make me look at injustice? Why do You tolerate wrongdoing? Destruction and violence are before me; there is strife, and conflict abounds.

Habakkuk 2:5-7 (NIV)

Indeed, wine betrays him; he is arrogant and never at rest. Because he is as greedy as the grave and like death is never satisfied, he gathers to himself all the nations and takes captive all the peoples. “Will not all of them taunt him with ridicule and scorn, saying, “‘Woe to him who piles up stolen goods and makes himself wealthy by extortion! How long must this go on?’ Will not your creditors suddenly arise? Will they not wake up and make you tremble? Then you will become their prey.

Zechariah 1:11-13 (NIV)

And they reported to the angel of the Lord who was standing among the myrtle trees, “We have gone throughout the earth and found the whole world at rest and in peace.” Then the angel of the Lord said, “Lord Almighty, how long will You withhold mercy fromJerusalem and from the towns ofJudah, which You have been angry with these seventy years?” So the Lord spoke kind and comforting words to the angel who talked with me.

Matthew 17:16-18 (NIV)

I brought him to your disciples, but they could not heal him.” “You unbelieving and perverse generation,” Jesus replied, “how long shall I stay with you? How long shall I put up with you? Bring the boy here to me.” Jesus rebuked the demon, and it came out of the boy, and he was healed at that moment.

Luke 13:33-35 (NIV)

In any case, I must press on today and tomorrow and the next day—for surely no prophet can die outside Jerusalem! Jerusalem, Jerusalem, you who kill the prophets and stone those sent to you, how often I have longed to gather your children together, as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings, and you were not willing. Look, your house is left to you desolate. I tell you, you will not see me again until you say, ‘Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord.’”

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Longing for God’s guidance and His WordPsalm 119:39-41 (NIV)Take away the disgrace I dread, for your laws are good. How I long for Your precepts! In Your righteousness preserve my life. May Your unfailing love come to me, Lord, Your salvation, according to Your promise

 

Together

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Together, i walk hand in hand with Jesus.
Oh, this is what i long for.
Walking side by side with loving Jesus Christ.
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Inspired on: Saturday, 06 March 2004