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Either or Wither

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Either living life to the full or
Wither into eternity in regret

Either fight the good fight of faith or
Wither from life feeling empty inside

Either living in freedom or
Wither from possessiveness

Either free of pain or
Wither in misery

Either obey God’s will
or
Wither in Satan’s grip

Either living in love or
Wither living selfishly

Either living in the Truth or
Wither living in falsehood

Either speak truthfully or
Wither in speaking lies

Either act out our inside love or
Wither being a hypocrite

Either live drinking from God or
Wither in thirst of love

Either live honestly or
Wither in lust

Either ended in heaven or
Wither destination in hell


Inspiration On: Thursday, 13 Jun 2013 at 2:18am
Inspiration Ends On: Wednesday, 18 September 2013 at 6:48pm

Wither is the rhyming word either. Afterward, I free my imagination based with these two words.

Consequences of Actions

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Piles of wood circling a tent
Flames burn on the piles of wood
A tent is circled by flames
Camping in the middle of the forest
Wild animals keep away from them

Ten ladies sleep in the tent peacefully
Exhausted with their retreat
Retreat in having quiet time
As their tent lean against a large sturdy tree

Alas, there is a hole on top of the tent
An undaunted slender young cobra
Hops from trees to trees with its tail
Targeting the tree where the tree is
Swinging its body in triumph
Then it abruptly drops itself into the tent’s hole

Thump!
It falls onto a lady’s face with its stuck out tongue
Waken
That light sleeper lady
Shrieks sharply in fear

Everyone wakes up
A brave fighter lady
Grabs the young cobra’s head
Sandwich cobra’s head
To prevent it from opening its jaw
Others cooperate and grab its body to tail
Leaving the fearful stoned light sleeper lady
They left the tent

In the count to three
They throw the poor snake
Into the hot burning flames
Rushing back into the tent
Sterilizing their hands from bacteria
Regaining their peace
Soothing the frightened frozen lady

In the hot burning tall flames
The poor young cobra
Cries and regretting for being
Too curious
Too haughty
As it turns to ashes instantly
As its friends watch in horror
Fearful of such predicament
Regretting their actions for
Sneering the poor young cobra

The young cobras return home
Confessing their sins to their parents
Their parents seek the poor young cobra’s parents
Seeking their forgiveness

The cobras’ parents resent them
Kick them out of the nest
Sobbing of their beloved two years old young cobra’s predicament
They left with disappointed looks
Return to their nests and discipline their young cobras


Inspiration On: Sunday, 9 June 2013 at 1:09am to 2:32am

This story played in my imagination supposedly to be humour. Unexpectedly, the story continues to concentrate upon the cobra unravelling its reason to do so. Then I realised that the poor young cobra signifies the folly of youth and the bullying happen during schooldays. Pride causes downfall.

Ebb

Ebb 1

~ Hikari Yori

Our assumptions are wrong spectacles
Clothing this in mind and eyes
Will lead to wrong conclusions and actions
Disastrous consequences will destroy ourselves ultimately

~ Tojiru Yoshiko

Ebb 2 Ebb 3

Inspiration On: Thursday, 30 May 2012 at 4:25pm
Inspiration Ends On: Saturday, 1 June 2013 at 12:02am
Artworks & Collaboration Inspiration Ends On: 28 June 2013 at 2:48pm
Artworks by Tienny The

Hikari Yori
Being too emotional as a mother when my son misbehaves, unexpectedly, he enjoys irritating me. Sometimes, I locked myself in the bathroom to cry after the struggle ends. After I calm down, I realised that humans are emotional being. EB acronym is produced. Inserting letter B will be EBB. Pondering about it, lead me to a picture. Picture came into my mind of a person being blown by an explosion. It is a movie that I watched before. Afterward, the movie showed that the person disappeared. Thank God it is not gross. According to the dictionary, ebb means

    1. The flowing back of the tide as the water returns to the sea (opposed to flood, flow)
    2. A flowing backward or away; decline or decay: the ebb of a once great nation.
    3. A point of decline: His fortunes were at a low ebb.
    4. To flow back or away, as the water of a tide ( opposed to flow )
    5. To decline or decay; fade away: His life is gradually ebbing.

Tojiru Yoshiko
Upon pondering this word, “emotion”, emotion tends to get the better of me too. It can be disastrous if depend it as compass. Let me share my bad experience into a learning experience.

Excited to get the first illustration project, I willingly accept it when my mom and brother disagreed. They disagreed to accept from my relative whom I felt close during young times. But she flew overseas to further her studies and no contact with her for 12 years and returned. Willingly, I emailed her the sketches. Upon knowing my price
though half lower than the market price, she told me she didn’t want to continue it. Regrets crushed me to know her true mask. If I know, I should believe my mom and brother. Afterward, my sister did mention of my relative character. Before I didn’t believe my relative is a cunning person. Now, it is a hard truth for me. Gulp. Like a hard stone in my throat and I was depressed. Obviously, I wore the wrong spectacle back then. Though no contact now and without her apology, I feel sad to lose such relationship. My dad also dislikes this relative. Then I realised those freelance artists will request for 50% deposit for the charged amount. I feel that I’m like a fool. Thank God that the second client introduced from a friend is approved by my family and completed the project.

Forgo

Forgo

Forgo

When we sin, we forgo the good path to take.
We forgo the evil path when we do what pleases God.
Which one will we choose?
Forgo the narrow path or forgo the broad path?


Inspiration On: Thursday, 28 March 2013 at 12:51am
Inspiration Ends On: Thursday, 11 April 2013 at 2:05pm

During my school holiday, I received a phone call around 9am during my devotional to help out at a place and they will pay me $50 in return. And I need to be there by 10am. I refused the offer thankfully because I want to spend more time with my Lord and His Word. When my sister knew about this, she was unhappy and advised me to take taxi for a few dollars and could recoup the losses. I was lost in words. Now, I hope to grab the opportunity to care for my parents financially and physically while they are still alive. They are blessings from God and He is giving me the time.

It dawned upon me “Flying opportunity” was defined for the acronym forgo. The remaining definitions came on 11 April. Regret is the most suitable word for letting go opportunity to do good. Relentless is to depict purposeful letting go opportunity for evil.

Long-Term & Lifelong

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When something seems too good to be true
Think and Analyse of its long-term consequences
There is bound to long-term sacrifice and pain
Towards the affected people, instigated ones and instigators
Or bound to long-term joy and peace
Or bound to lifelong guilt

Feel!

How fragile is a child’s heart
Just a minor action will affect that child’s lifelong psychologically
Either lifelong beautiful memories or lifelong unrepairable wounds.

Choose!
Choose after you think!
Think as you choose!
Think before you reach to a decision!

How many times adults make excuses to justify their actions?
And let it happen to the innocent born child
Is it the right way to do so?

Think!
Analyze!
Feel!
Choose!
Decide!

Don’t let the history to repeat itself!


Inspiration On: Friday, 3 August 2012 at 11:08pm
Revised On: Sunday, 5 August 2012 at 11:15pm

With phrases rang in my mind upon seeing my sister’s photo, “When something seems too be true”, my heart feels apologetic towards her.

My grandmother and uncles from dad’s side instigated him to let my sister to study and stay i good n Singapore. My mother was reluctant about it and my grandmother (mother’s) spoke that it is the best for a child to stay with own parents. My mother respected my father’s decision and think about my sister’s good education since my uncles have Singapore PR.

Upon giving birth to me, my grandmother wanted my parents to give it to my father’s third elder brother who cannot conceive. My mother was reluctant and dejected. But my third aunt chose my four-years old sister because she was easier to take care rather than me. How hers and my destiny are swapped. Adoption letter was made and my sister receives Singapore PR.

During secondary school, my sister indirectly told mother that she wants to return to hometown, but my mother didn’t get it and replied for her to stay and further her education. My mother was concerned my sister would not be able to adjust to the syllabus at hometown. Misunderstanding occurred. The reason my sister wanted to return to hometown was due to ostracise and bully from third aunt, her cousins. To make it worse, she was forced by grandmother to study all the time. Sense of abandonment and rejection crept into her soul and it lasted until now. Why would my parents leave her alone?

My third aunt was jealous of my mother for being able to conceive. So my sister became the victim of abuse though my parents were paying her school fees. She kept quiet at the abuse, but the helper could not stand it and instructed her to quickly eat more while my aunt was not at the kitchen. Report came to my parents and I heard it during my primary years. Upon reaching my secondary school, my parents began to share about those. My sister confided that those years she continuously watched the white blank wall. I felt pity and hope to accompany her.

To everyone’s surprise, my sister entered Polytechnic then to university and with a bachelor degree. Back then, everyone felt her grades were hopeless. I am graduated very happy that she can succeed.

But the scar of abandonment was there and erupted before her marriage ceremony. My parents and my sister had heated argument about the seating arrangement. Blame for not informing my dad about the seating arrangement fell upon my mother who was forgetful due to the need to handle household. But my sister didn’t think so. She thought that mother purposefully didn’t inform my dad. I have been trying to remove the misunderstanding between them.

Two years later, my sister conceived to a baby girl and had a one month confinement period. She questioned mother for not letting her return to hometown again then explained the words she told before. Mother felt that she need to speak about her feelings and needs directly.

Though now their relationship are good, my mother regretted and is fearful now to pass the adoption letter to my sister after arranged her documents nicely into a file. She is afraid of the erupting fire from my sister. Upon seeing the letter, I have been wondering how to explain to my beloved sister. It is a very painful process for both my mother and sister. And I am praying for God’s intervention and what should I do. I am caught in the middle.

Inner Emotion

When you are downcast,
frustration sets in,
the words that you regretted to say,
Really speaks the truth about you inner emotion.