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Brain Warfare

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Warfare in my brain
Need to be
By the power of God
In Jesus Christ!

Abba Father
Hear my cry
Hear my struggle
Hear my weaknesses
Rescue me from the massive voices
Let me be with You
Let me be Your ambassadors

~ Tojiru Yoshiko

Inspiration On: Saturday, 27 June 2015 at 6pm

There are lots of voices warring in my brain. There are many struggles to keep the voices down. This is the most upheaval states of mind. Being an autistic is a massive struggle to overcome. I thank The Lord to save me first for being the weakest in my family. God bless you all for reading my poetry to minister.


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Sadness feelings wave us away from our self identity
Sadness feelings wake us up from our harmful ways

Inspiration On: Monday, 10 June 2013 at 5pm
Inspiration Ends On: Tuesday, 11 June 2013 at 3:40am

“Struggle Anger Disconnection” produced the acronym of Sad. According to Collins English Dictionary – Complete and Unabridged sad means
1. feeling sorrow; unhappy
2. causing, suggestive, or expressive of such feelings a sad story
3. unfortunate; unsatisfactory; shabby; deplorable her clothes were in a sad state
4. ludicrously contemptible; pathetic he’s a sad, boring little wimp
5. (Cookery) (of pastry, cakes, etc.) not having risen fully; heavy
6. (of a colour) lacking brightness; dull or dark
7. Archaic serious; grave

CT / CAT Scan

CT Scan / CAT Scan

CT Scan / CAT Scan

Too much strain and pressure will produce anguish without us realizing it.
It will also enter our dream and subconscious.
Our hearts and minds are at rest when we find rest in Lord Jesus Christ.

Matthew 11:28-29 (KJV)
Come unto Me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you, and learn of Me; for I AM meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.

Inspiration On: Thursday, 21 March 2013 at 1:27am
Inspiration Ends On: Sunday, 7 April 2013 at 6:07pm

“Continual Tension” echoed repeatedly in my mind and it somehow led me to describe CT scan. But I can’t think of defining the last letter N until I skim through the Oxford Advanced Learner’s dictionary prayerfully.

As I look upon the meaning of CT scan from Oxford advanced learner’s dictionary, it means a medical examination that uses a computer to produce an image of the inside of somebody’s body from X-Ray or Ultrasound pictures.

During my college days, I often I had repeated nightmare of failing Pascal programming exam twice. Pascal programming module is during my Diploma course where I passed with average grade during my third attempts. Those afterthought feelings are terrible, but thank God I passed. Now, no such dreams anymore. Thank God for that. So the CT Scan / CAT Scan definition is birthed out. Though I received Christ before my College days, I was struggling with those feelings and worked much harder in my studies. Praise God to receive Second Lower Class Honours.




Hastiness to fulfil wishes and wants costs a huge price.
King Saul’s hastiness cost him losing God’s favour. (Genesis & 1;2 Samuel)
How long do we persevere?

James 1:2-4 KJV
My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations; knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience. But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.

Inspiration On: Friday, 15 February 2013 at 5:49pm
Inspiration Ends On: Thursday, 21 February 2013 at 10pm

Upon observing my toddler, it started with the inspirations, “I want it now”. When I remove the “I”, it makes the acronym of “Win”. There are those who are hasty to be rich through the wrong path are inflicting pain upon themselves and their family. Few accumulate riches through honest means. Those who are struggling in difficulties will either commit suicide or persevere. My dad persevered during hard times and now he seems satisfied though not rich. He has enough for old age.


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Staggering heart turns to Stable heart
Struggling hands turns to Strong hands
Striving mind turns to persevering mind
Surviving spirit turns to living spirit
Soul is bounded, but is freed.
Attempting to live life to the fullest.
I’m learning to live life to the fullest.
“Indeed, life is lived to the full.” That’s what I heard.
Through His strength upon us.
As He walk with me through the dark valleys,
Valleys of the shadows of death.
My heart feels peace with His presence.

Inspiration On: Monday, 7 January 2013 at 5:30pm
Inspiration Ends On: Wednesday, 10 January 2013 at 10:08pm

I was contemplating of life’s difficulties. Seems that there is a cycle of life phases that most people have to go through. And I keep trusting God to see me through. Many testimonies testify of God’s goodness and faithfulness upon their lives. Furthermore, I am inspired from Psalms 23.

Chaotic to Chaos

Tremendous senses creeps in humans’ heart when their minds are in chaos. Therefore, CHAOTIC hearts and mind will lead to CHAOS to the world.

Chaotic to Chaos

Inspiration On: Wednesday, 25 July 2012 at 6:27pm
Inspiration Ends On: Wednesday, 1 August 2012 at 4:30pm

Out of a sudden, “horrendous” and “chaotic” jumped up into my mind as I gazed upon the scenery out of the train window. On Friday at 11:35am, the word for T came. C and O on Sunday at 4:13am.

Afterward, struggle for the S of CHAOS suddenly came at 7:18pm, C at 11:44pm due to pumping the clogged shower tub.

CHAOTIC definitions were completed on Tuesday midnight from 3:05am onwards, T for “tempted” is changed to temptations. Followed by the words for H, I, C, changing from “Confused & Corrupted” to “Confusion with numerous paths”, adding to H “of the consequences”, and the words for A.

The remaining words for CHAOS were completed on Wednesday midnight after 2:21am. And revise the whole terms again.

A Daily Struggle

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A daily struggle to do quiet times
A daily struggle to do God’s will
A daily struggle to obey God
A daily struggle to please God
A daily struggle to revere God
A daily struggle to fear God
A daily struggle to commit our ways to the Lord

In our hearts, soul, mind, actions
In our attitude towards life
In all that we Think and Do
In planning all our way.

Remember Elohim.

Inspiration On: Friday, 6 July 2012 at 11:50am
Revised On: Friday, 6 July 2012 at 5:40pm

As I was doing my daily quiet time, suddenly there was an urge, “A daily struggle” due to many other commitments to perform tasks at home especially disciplining my toddler.

Inspiration is from Proverbs 16:3 (KJV) “Commit thy works unto the Lord, and thy thoughts shall be established.